Never before this past year have I been more sleep-deprived, vulnerable, uncertain, selfless. Never before have I been more in awe, prouder, or loving. Never before have I been so happy. Thank you, baby boy (or big boy, I should say!). Thank you for indirectly teaching me not only how to better love you, but […]
and I got to work on Patrick’s strawberry cake with funfetti icing, as requested– and as is the same selection for today 😂. Later, my parents joined Patrick and me for his birthday lunch at The Cheesecake Factory. During lunch, I felt some new pains and, as the day went on, we began to time their […]
The first year having a baby is an emotional roller coaster. My little guy and his needs have come before mine: my need to feel connected to my husband as deeply as we once were, my need to see family and friends and socialize as we once did, my need for new clothes even. Reflecting […]
If you’re a fan of my blog, you know I got a little kick out of the viral article that praised moms for being “enough” when I feel sassy, confident, and plenty on the daily. In fact, when I compare myself to hubs, I am even more confident that I’m kicking this whole mom thing […]
It’s 11:15 PM. I put you down in your aqua-and-grey chevron-themed nursery at 7:45. You woke just slightly– as usual– as you and your dinosaur footies hit the mattress, but you succumbed to the weight of your eyelids as you reassured yourself that Mommy was nearby and it was time to enter Sleepytown. So, who […]
I forgot to share this one from a few months back when I was returning to work after maternity leave. <3 I know that it’s okay I work I know that you’ll be fine I hope that spending less time together Gets easier with time Tomorrow I return to work And you have your own […]
As a first time mommy for the last six months, I’ve experienced so many firsts. First night I went without sleep, first time you slept through the night, first bottle, first Christmas. So many firsts. I’ve become used to awaiting the next first. For a while, it seemed like all the “big boy” things like […]
I emerge from the nursery slowly and silently, grabbing the monitor to check for movement. He’s asleep. It’s 8:30 and it only took him one bottle, two diaper changes, one refused paci, and one rocking to get there, but he’s asleep. Somewhere, a choir of angels rejoices in song. It’s “our time.” In the short […]
Tonight I told my mom that I started this blog. I told her how awkward of a mother I believe myself to be. Her response was… confused. Oh, she said. I think you’re a wonderful mother. I immediately imagined myself behind her eyes and took a mental snapshot of me. Loving, gentle me, cuddling my son […]
I just had one of those defining moments in life. While admiring my son as he fell asleep in my arms for bedtime, as he does each night, it hit me… what “love” must be. I didn’t have a particularly tiring day today, in fact, I spent most of it relaxing with my son, D. […]